Getting it all out so I don't implode...

I have done everything in my ability not to come across as the crazy first time mom. Its been hard to keep the crazy so deep inside and hidden. I'm sure it can be seen through the occasional crack.

I've read a lot of other mom blogs and find myself being fairly laid back about most things. Like breast feeding versus formula- whatever if takes to make sure Natalia is healthy and fed is that matters. And my relationship with my mother and mother-in-law seem to be amazing compared to a lot of women's experiences. Honestly, I don't know what to expect realistically so I've been trying to just go with the flow.

But there are a few things that I find myself focused on...

• Whooping cough vaccine- everyone who wants to be around Natalia in the first few months has to have it. I don't care what your stance on vaccines is, I wont let my baby be put at risk for a stupid reason. If you're allergic to the vaccine then you just have to wait to see her in person, I'm sorry. Herd immunity isn't what it should be to protect her and I don't want to take extra risks.
• No visitors for the first week or so- this doesn't include grandparents obviously, but I have some friends who think they'll be in the waiting room of the hospital or coming over as soon as we get home. Um no. Sorry, I'm a hormonal emotional wreck now most of the time, I don't need the pressure of entertaining guests after the huge does of hormones that come with labor.
• Jokes about stealing my baby will be met with an immediate glare and being asked to leave- funny as you think that is, it's not. So shut up. I've fielded enough of these already. 
• Offers to come over and hold the baby while I do chores will not be answered. Offer to come over and hold her so I can sleep or shower are welcomed. So is offering to do chores. Or just wanting to hang out and watch a movie. 
• Calling me out on being nervous, over protective, or being a "nazi" first time mom isn't okay, especially if you're childless. I've never done this before and I don't need to be criticized for it. I'm going to make mistakes, and be weird about certain things, but that's okay. All mom's have their moments. 

Ya, I'm sure that list made me sound crazy and controlling, but I'm just glad to have it out in the open because holding it in was killing me. I'm going into this with no idea what I'm doing and am bound to make mistakes and be overly neurotic and focus on the wrong things. My goal is to take it in stride and be laid back... we'll see how it works.