Dear Grandma

Dear Grandma,

Its been a few months since you passed away but I still find myself going to call you on my way home from classes every Friday... like I did last semester. I haven't even deleted your number from my phone- I can't bring myself to do it.

Everything has gone back to normal. Well, as normal as it gets when someone is missing from your life.

I try to call Grandpa when I can in the evenings. I get so busy with studying and my suddenly existent social life that sometimes I forget and the time zones screw me up. When I forget I beat myself up. I feel bad. I should be there for him more. Our phone conversations are kind of awkward but still pleasant.

Grandpa misses you so much... he gets really lonely in the evening. I miss you too. It sounds like Wendi and his family are helping him out. I wish I lived closer to him so I could help him out too.

I know we didn't agree on a lot of things but I still love you. You were more of an influence in my life than I ever realized. I'm pursuing my degree in History, because of you and Dad. You instilled that love and respect of the past in me at such a young age. I'm going to be a history teacher... hopefully spread that love and respect further and into more kids.

I'm engaged, Grandma! I know you didn't really like David but in all fairness you didn't really know him. He makes me so happy and I know that would make you happy too. He takes care of me and does everything to make me happy. David's going to take good care of me, Grandma. I just wish you had gotten to know him better. He really loved your stories and thought you had great spunk. I wish you had given him a chance.

I miss you so much, Grandma. I'm glad I have all those amazing memories with you- on the lake, meeting the other Kirsten, Deception Pass, spending summers at the cabin.

I love you Grandma.

Love,

Kirsten