Crushing

Do you ever get the sensation that the world is trying to kill you?
Ya, its a little melodramatic, but that's how it feels right now.
Between work, school, and volunteering I feel so overwhelmed and there's no way to take a step back to fix it.
I try not to unload or vent on my blog, I know it makes people uncomfortable but right now I'm looking for advice- good adult advice.
Right now I feel like life is crushing me, I'm not happy with so many things, the only constant that I find joy in is my relationship with David.
I have very little interest in any of my classes.
Volunteering is fun, but time consuming.
Work is well work- I love the people but the actual job can be stressful physically.
My friends are busy getting ready to graduate, but not me.
Sometimes I feel so ready to move forward and "start" my life, other times I don't want school to end.
More than anything, I'm confused and I have no idea how to make myself feel better.

Teacher, Teacher

I wrote this poem as a final project for T&L 301 and wanted to share it. Enjoy!

Teacher, Teacher

Teacher, teacher,
Why can’t I learn?
Is there something wrong?
The letters are backwards,
My brain doesn’t understand,
How can b and d be so hard to comprehend?

Teacher, teacher,
Why can’t I learn?
Is there something wrong?
Momma doesn’t speak the same language as you
When I’m at home at night,
My brain doesn’t understand,
How can your language be so hard to comprehend?

Teacher, teacher,
Why can’t I learn?
Is there something wrong?
I’m so hungry all the time,
I can’t focus on what you say,
My brain doesn’t understand,
My stomach growls all the time.
How can my hunger make it hard for me to comprehend?

Teacher, teacher,
Why can’t I learn?
Is there something wrong?
I can never focus,
Everything seems so hard,
My brain doesn’t understand,
Sitting still is just so hard,
How can AHDH make learning so hard for me to comprehend?

Teacher, teacher,
Why can’t I learn?
Is there something wrong?
The boys say I’m less,
The boys say I’m dumb,
My brain doesn’t understand,
Why is my sex a problem?
How can sexism be something for me to comprehend?

Student, student,
You can learn,
There’s nothing wrong,
You’re perfect in your individuality,
We’ll find a way for you learn,
And soon you’ll comprehend.
I wont let you down.

A New Year!

Wow, this New Year came upon us quickly didn't it?!

I can't believe the semester is about to start already... eek!

The last year ended with 40 hour work weeks and the new year started with New Year's Eve with my family.
This last week was spent in the Seattle area exploring the mountains on snow shoes,  seeing the animals of the world at the Woodland Park Zoo, and just enjoying time with my family.

I couldn't have asked for a better week in Seattle!

My 22nd birthday also came around during my week in Seattle, so did David's! We celebrated with our families, good food, and great cake! Since the time I started playing volleyball my lucky number has been 22- this year is going to be awesome!

We all know we're supposed to make resolutions this time of the year, but this year I'm not going to. I never follow through unfortunately, so it seems like an unnecessarily stressful tradition. Usually I make empty promises to myself about weight loss, or something similar. This year I'm just gonna go with it!

Now for the BIG news!
On January 7, 2012 my mother and I found and bought my wedding dress!!!!!! I'M SO HAPPY.
And much like I always do I have started a special blog just for wedding stuff so that I don't overload this blog with  my planning! I'll post a link to it when I get it up and running.
Tentative date for the wedding is June 2014 in O'ahu, HI.